One of the great problems any religious person should struggle with is whether it is actually possible to be religious. What, after all, is the essence of genuine religiosity? This is no doubt the cognizance that one lives in the presence of God and feels and acts accordingly. To do so, however, is nearly impossible. Abraham Joshua Heschel once made the profound observation: “Religion depends upon what man does with his ultimate embarrassment.”(1)
While we may not agree with Heschel that embarrassment lies at the root of religion, we agree that it is unpretentiousness combined with deep humility that moves genuine religion.
The concept that lies at the root of all religions is the awareness that it is extremely difficult to live up to the awe of the moment. Our ultimate concern should be to grasp – emotionally and intellectually – that we are the contemporaries of God, and to experience this in the most elevated way. But for the majority of us this is an impossible mission. How can man ever encounter the Divine “otherness”? It is the task of religion to guide us through this almost desperate situation. Paradoxically, admitting the impossibility of this undertaking, and responding to it in a responsible way, is what makes our humility a genuine religious experience.
How can one live in God’s presence and not be humble? Live in the shadow of greatness and not sense it? Be part of the great miracle of existence and ignore it? To be religious is to live in a state of being spiritually uncomfortable. Yet, who among us is in fact spiritually uncomfortable? We have become so insensitive that we are not even embarrassed by our lack of self-consciousness. This almost turns the religious lives of millions, including our own, into a farce.
We may sincerely convince ourselves that we are religious, while in fact we are guilty of self-deception. For religious Jews this may be an even greater problem than for those who follow other religions. Judaism’s constant demand to follow Halacha may give the impression that Judaism depends solely on the need to “observe,” or carefully perform, the Halacha in its entirety with its nearly obsessive demand to fulfill all the rituals and laws with all their minutiae.
How often do religious Jews believe they are religious because they are observant?
This is one of the major pitfalls of Jewish observant life. In truth, Halacha is not to be observed, but rather experienced as a way to contend with one’s lifelong existential awareness that he/she is living in the presence of God. Halacha is a response to our question of how to live with spiritual discomfort.
A remarkable feature of Halacha is that it often asks us to act as if we are deeply provoked by living in the presence of God, while in reality we are not. This begs the question whether such a halachic act can be authentic as opposed to downright hypocritical. It is here that Judaism is not completely comfortable with its own demands. Should it ask Jews to act as if they are moved and therefore do as if they are filled with the deepest religious feelings? Or should it ask Jews to act according to their real feelings and not pretend? Judaism is fully aware that whichever road it suggests, there will be a heavy price to pay. The Jew may feel hypocritical, or they may not even be aware that they have lost their dream since there is nothing that reminds them of it.
In a notable discussion(2) between the great Mishnaic schools of Beit Shamai and Beit Hillel, the question is posed whether it is better to light all eight candles of the menorah on the first day of Chanukah, or on the last day. Beit Shamai suggests that one should begin with lighting all eight, subtracting a candle every subsequent day until only one is lit on the eighth day. Beit Hillel’s opinion is that we should light only one candle on the first day and slowly build up to eight candles on the eighth day. The latter is the established Halacha; but what is this dispute all about?
It has been suggested that the disagreement between these two schools is rooted in the question of whether people should express their religious commitment through acts that honestly reflect where they stand at that hour, or through acts that express where they would like to be in the future.(3) Is Judaism better served by making us act as if we are on a level of high spirituality, while in fact we are not, or does it prefer that we express our religious feelings “ba-asher hu sham”—“where he is at that moment”(4)—reflecting our often middle-of-the-road religious condition?
Beit Shamai’s suggestion that one should light all eight candles on the first night is for the most part, an honest expression of our feelings. We are more excited on the first day than we are on the last. For most of us, the notion of novelty is felt at the start, never at the end. Hence, eight lights are required on the first day. But such excitement comes with a price. It does not endure. Like the sexual act that wears off after a moment when not accompanied by the binding of souls—Post coitum omne animal triste est, “Every animal is sad after intercourse”(5)—so all religious acts, when experienced solely as novelty and excitement, lose their impact as the exhilaration slowly dissipates. It is therefore logical that on the second day only seven lights be lit and on the last day only one. It is Beit Shamai’s conviction that we should not put on a show and pretend that we are more than what we are.
Such an approach is thoroughly honest but lacks a dream and vision of what could be. Beit Hillel therefore believes that if we do not inspire human beings with a vision of their potential and give them a taste of what could be, they will not even strive to achieve higher goals. As Robert Browning said, “Ah, but a man’s reach should exceed his grasp – or what’s a heaven for?” According to Beit Hillel, we should start with only one light on the first day, since this reflects the condition of our soul at the beginning of Chanukah. We need to warm up and slowly strengthen our soul until it bursts with spiritual depth on the eighth day when we reach the fullness of the festival. The lighting of the menorah should be a transforming act, and that can take place only when it is accompanied by an inner experience that touches the deepest dimensions of our souls, step by step. True, we may not feel this way initially, but we must awaken and educate ourselves toward this goal. The last day should be the greatest. We should act “as if” so that one day we may reach this spiritual level—we taste the future in the present.
Novelty is often just a new, sparkling form of mediocrity, while excellence is rooted in the old, but revitalized, on a higher plane. It is not the honest mediocrity of today that we need, but an exalted dream of tomorrow.
It is between these two positions that Judaism operates—a balancing act, as in the case of a tightrope walker. Most of the time, it requires a compromise. Sometimes Jewish law will opt for a realistic understanding of the here and now; other times it will choose the dream. It is a difficult position to be in, and it is not always clear why Halacha will decide a certain way in one instance and another in other instances. The danger is that this reality may never satisfy anyone.
But it is the realistic understanding of “you can’t have your cake and eat it too” that seems to move Judaism. Beit Shamai will sometimes have to agree that there is a need to go for the dream, and Beit Hillel will on occasion have to rule by the harsh facts on the ground. Such differences are even found within the Torah, as well as among other Sages and later authorities.(6) Judaism cannot survive by opting for only one of these ideals—this would be suicidal.
Most interesting is the fact that there is one opinion in the Talmud(7) that states Beit Shamai continued to follow its own view, even after the Halacha was decided in accordance with Beit Hillel. According to this opinion, it seems that Beit Shamai continued to light eight candles on the first day of Chanukah, although everyone else followed the opinion of Beit Hillel(8). This makes us wonder, for tradition tells us that Halacha will only be established in accordance with the rulings of Beit Shamai in the messianic era. There is, however, no source for this tradition in the Talmud.(9) Could it mean that for exceptional souls it would be possible to follow the views of Beit Shamai even today?
No two souls are the same. It is this fact that makes religious life a far from easy task. Even if human beings know that religion is their response to their ultimate embarrassment, as Heschel would have it, they still will not know how to act. Shall they be honest so as not to pretend, or shall they pretend so that they remain faithful to their dreams and aspirations?
All Jews need to ask themselves this unusual question. But who among us do?
(1) A.J. Heschel, “Who is man?” Stanford, CA: Stanford University Press, 1965, p. 112.
(2) Shabbat 21b.
(3) See also: Rabbi Eliyahu Eliezer Dessler, Michtav Me-Eliyahu, Vol. II (Jerusalem, 1963) pp.120-122.
(4) Bereshit 21:17.
(5) A famous Latin expression.
(6) See for example the Torah’s toleration of slavery (Shemot 21:1-6) and the complete
rejection of this institution as the ultimate dream to which it seems to aspire (Vayikra
25:55). See also: Eruvin 65a concerning prayer, and Shulchan Aruch, Orach Chayim 98:2.
(7) Yevamot 14a.
(8) See also Shabbat 21b where the story is told that some people followed the custom of Beit Shamai on Chanukah long after a divine voice instructed that the Halacha is according to Beit Hillel (Eruvin 13b). The Bi‘ur Halacha in Mishna Berura, Orach Chayim 671:2, makes an interesting observation that the Halacha is only solely according to Beit Hillel when the Talmud lays down the strict Halacha, not in the case of mehadrin min hamehadrin–literally, “those who are the meticulous among the meticulous,” in this context, those who beautify the Halacha beyond its basic requirement, being only one light each day of Chanukah. Bi‘ur Halacha cautions that such should not be done in practice. This essay, however, argues that such practice may be an actual option.
(9) The first source for this is a statement by the Ari z”l, which is quoted by Malbim in Torah Ohr, Bamidbar 19:2.
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